I know I haven’t posted in a while, I just haven’t felt led to share anything. I’ve been thinking and praying, and plenty is going on in my life to write about, but I just didn’t feel led to write about any of it. At least, not yet! I was sitting in church Sunday, and our pastor started talking about idols. My mind just starts going, and I knew what I would blog about.
Idols are one of those things that aren’t really seen any more. In the Old Testament, there were statues, large and small. It’s easy to write off the whole idol thing as a Christian, because we don’t pysically bow down, or burn incense to an actual statue. We can just write that whole idol thing off. Or can we? I feel like in my experience, the idols that we can’t see are even trickier. The things that are good things in life, but can become consuming. It would almost be easier if it were a physical idol, that we could actually destroy with a hammer. We could destroy it once and for all. Many things in our lives, we have to keep at bay, always keeping those boundaries, that those good things stay in their right place.
As I was listening on Sunday, I of course, started to become convicted about some things in my life that I have let become overgrown. These little weeds growing here and there, and new growth has begun. It’s not the kind of growing I want in my life though. These weeds need to be pulled, and I need to get some weed killer on these things! I’ve done quite a bit of weeding this Summer, and it looks so much better once the weeding is done! The weeds cover so much of the beauty of the flowers, and start to take away life from the flowers as well. It’s one of those things that you have to stay on top of. You can’t just weed once, and never do it again. I’m super sad about that. But, it’s the same in our walk with Christ. We have to stay on top of those weeds, and pull our those roots as soon as they start. Otherwise, we all know what happens when these weeds take over our faith. It’s a very ugly thing, and it takes so long to get them cleaned out.
I don’t want these ugly idols in control of my life, choking out the growth Christ is doing in my heart. I’m guessing you don’t either. One of the questions our pastor asked to help identify idols was “What are you most disappointed with?”. Well, that’s a lot to think about, isn’t it? For me, it seems it depends on the day. I realized while listening to him, that I have a bunch of starts of idols growing. God has given me victory over food, but it tempts me at times, even still. Also, I use to bow to the idol of entertainment, which that can still tug on me as well. But, when I answered that question, I realized that what usually disappointed me was the behavior of my children, and the unrealistic expectations I put on my husband. So, my family. Ouch. I wasn’t expecting that. I think that happens to a lot of us as moms. My happiness depends on everyone else at times. That seems pretty silly, especially since my kids are so inconsistent, and well, not even rational! I’m glad to know that I have something to ask myself, though, to kind of see where I’m at in this idol thing. What dissappoints YOU the most?
The next question was “Where do you turn when it hurts?”. Hmm, that took a bit to think about, but it’s not usually food anymore. I’ve noticed a new pattern now. I tend to buy things. That’s frustrating, because I thought that idol was dead and buried in my youth. Well, it’s trying to grow again, and I’m so glad God has been opening my eyes to it! I don’t want to run my family’s finances in the ground for something that never satisfies. Where do YOU turn when it hurts?
The next one was “What do your dream of/are passionate about?”. I can be passionate about many things. The thing lately though, that I’ve really been enjoying is cooking. I just enjoy trying new recipes, and finding really great ones. I love looking at cooking magazines, and of course Pinterest. These things are not bad, but God reminds me, well, to keep them in their place. It’s hard when that’s part of your job when you are raising a family, but God wants to do the work for me. He always is reminding me to just do my part. My part is to keep things in their place, and to completely surrender to Him every moment of every day. What are YOU passionate about that has maybe gotten out of hand?
Finally, the last question was “What do you think will make you truly happy?”. In other parts of my life, I would have said, “to be thin”, “to get out of debt”, “to have great kids”. At this point of my life, and coming to the end of myself so many times, I can honestly say, I know the only thing that can make me truly happy, is to be completely surrendered to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. He is the only master worth serving. I can tell you that, because I have served so many other masters. They only bring death, but Christ, well, He brings us life:
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10
I don’t know about you, but I want that full life! I don’t want emptiness, that’s what these idols bring. They only take, and they will take until there is nothing left of you. That’s how Satan works, he wants to destroy us, and to try to destroy our relationship with Christ. What’s the thing that messes with our relationship with Christ the most? Idols. Let’s not give in to them! When you see a root starting, yank it out with me! Let’s keep our eyes open, stay alert, and keep pulling those weeds! I know it’s tiring, but like we have talked about so many times, God does not says it’s going to be easy. We need Him, and without Him, we’d be covered in weeds.
But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things! Gal. 5:22-23