Then Jesus said, ‘Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest…For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light. Matt. 11:28-30
I don’t know about you, but I’m tired. Just plain ol’ bone tired. I feel dry and empty, almost numb. I know this isn’t how I want to feel, I know I don’t want to stay in this dry and dusty place. It’s kind of ironic too, that I would feel this way now, of all times. My busy season is starting to wrap up. A lot of things are ending for the year, and I know there will be some things I will not pick back up in the Fall. This should be a time of relief, finishing well, except I want to throw in the towel. Then God reminds me:
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run the race God has set before us. Hebrews 12:1
Such a sweet and wonderful reminder to keep our eyes on the goal, on our Father! We have to at all times, but we sometimes lose our focus don’t we? The things of this world can be so distracting, I feel like I have ADD sometimes! I want to focus, I want to not trip on my sin. I love how God tells us to throw off those weights, especially that sin. Wow.
Sometimes I just get tired of doing things for people, and constantly pouring out everything I have onto my husband and kids. It feels like many times I just get attitude, complaints and just plain ingratitude thrown back in my face. But then, again, I hear God say:
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Gal. 6:9
Have you ever not seen that to be true? God always comes through! He never gives up on us, but I’m such a whiny baby when it comes to running the race. He is so faithful, but I can be so wishy washy, and easily distracted, I’m ashamed to admit it. Why do I get so tired of doing good, and often fall short of the finish line? I think some of it for me, is that I’m trying to do some of it in my own strength. I’m not completely relying and abiding in Him. I know how wonderful it is when I do abide, when I stop trying, and simply obey Him. Why do I end up tired, and wanting to give up right before it’s over?
It hit me, as I was talking myself into going downstairs to work out. I didn’t want to go. I wanted to sit on the couch with Netflix and chips, and maybe even a diet soda. It has been a rough morning with the kids, and a busy couple of days (it’s only Tuesday!). After all, I deserve it, right? I just need to escape for a bit, right? The problem is, I have escaped a lot in my 36 years, and it’s never gotten me anywhere, because at the end of it, you have to return to reality. Returning to reality without filling your soul, well, that just keeps us in this cycle. That’s my point, (I know, finally!) we need to break the cycle of escaping or zoning out. We need to go to Jesus, He is the only one that can renew us when we are in this state. In case you are wondering, I broke the cycle, I worked out the last two days, even though I wanted with every fiber of my being to stay on this couch! I didn’t eat chips or a diet soda. I moved past my cravings, and moved forward instead of back. It doesn’t feel that great, but it feels like the discipline God has been trying to instill in me this past year. I have been ruled by food cravings in the past, and by escaping. God has been reminding me that He has given me victory there, and I am 35 pounds lighter to prove it! Why go back to that bondage? Why not run the race, moving forward? Why would I want to run in circles?
The example of my issues of escaping are unique to me, please don’t put on any guilt if you eat the things I mentioned or have the things I don’t. Also, don’t feel bad if you don’t exercise, all of these things are between you and God. They are just an example of the cycle I needed to break. Other times, I can watch Netflix without guilt, because I’m not trying to escape, it just depends on the heart behind your actions. I don’t know what God wants to clear your heart of, but by giving you examples in my own life, you can be there with me, knowing you are not alone in your struggles. We are so much the same, but of course we differ in our areas of struggle. What is it that God is asking you to break the cycle on? I promise you the first time you break it, it will be so hard, so remember, it’s not by our power, but by Christ’s. The next time you break it, it will be a bit easier, then before you know it, God has gained another victory in your life over bondage. Just know, that Satan will be back with more temptations, but as we gain victories through Christ, it’s so much easier to say no. There was a quote from Mother Teresa that was such a good reminder to me, and just spoke to what following Christ is all about:
God does not require that we be successful only that we be faithful.
Let’s be faithful together, in His power we can be. It isn’t always pretty, but the outcome of the faithfulness God is asking of us will reap a wonderful harvest.